I could do

I read somewhere that we have a misconception of what God asks of us. We go along believing the myth that "God will not give us more than we can handle" but this is not the case. He did not say that. He will absolutely give us more than we can handle because it is the only way he can get us to release it completely to Him. The truth is He will not give us more than "He can handle" using us to accomplish His will.

So this is where we sit. In between the possibility of what "I could do" and the reality of what "He can handle".

It is uncomfortable and unnatural for me. It makes me squirm under the pressure of "actively waiting". Gary and I have always known our family will grow through the blessing of adoption. It is times like this ,and when we waited to 2yrs and one failed placement to be matched with Eliana's birthmother, that I can absolutely relate to the desperate urgency felt by Sarah as each day she only grew older.

Our child is in an orphanage right now, waiting on us, waiting on God. I look at the $8750 due just to start the process and a week has come and gone since we received confirmation that this is where he is leading us to adopt from. In my sinful humanity I secretly want to "laugh" as Sarah did when she heard that at 90+yrs old she would bare a child after being childless for so long. I know in her heart it was either laugh or cry at the reality of the situation.

Faith, I think, comes harder for us ladies. We nurture, we protect with the ferocity of a "momma bear", we over analyze....wayyy to much, we take on the world, and shoulder the burden of "doing it all". What refining God must do to us to get us to unclench our fists and let Faith carry us through.

Too much for 9am on a Monday? Sorry this adoption is on my mind 24-7. I would love nothing more than to have the freedom to wake up and write a check for $8750.00 and run to pick up my baby but I am in the process of a refining.

Stay tuned.......

beyond all this

Somewhere
Beyond these reasons and feelings
Somewhere
Beyond the passion and fatigue
I know You're there
And that Your Spirit is leading me
Somewhere
Beyond all this




We are adoptive parents. We have a beautiful 4yr old little girl who we were blessed with through private domestic adoption but our family is far from complete....
The journey to our newest family addition started over a year ago and God used a brief detour to guide us to Afr1ca.

Afr1ca currently has around 5 Million Orphans - overwhelming number isn't it? I don't know how to save them all but Gary and I have prayed and we know that Christ is the voice of a million. He is leading us beyond our daily lives, beyond our understanding of adoption, beyond our fear of financial burden that accompanies international adoption, beyond all of this - to Afr1ca and our child.

Here is where we begin with no idea how the first $amount due will come. I hate talking money. We are the ones who love to share our blessing and now we are asking for you to share your blessing with us.

We are working on possible fundraising ideas. I am really looking forward to meeting with a family who has walked this path before us (thanks for the hookup Cassandra :) to brainstorm and hopefully find out what may or may not work. We all know though that with God in control He will use anything He wants to accomplish His will.

So right now all we have is the Chipin Widget you see above that accepts Credit Card donations via PayPal even if you are not a PayPal user. Please continue to follow us and watch for upcoming posts.